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Hmm.. ish.
Recently my mind have been doing more thinking then usual. And its like suddenly i realize this thing between my ears actually works. But sometimes.. its like ergh. Donno how to express it. Like now. Suddenly i realize that we actually ARE the weaker ones.. for me at least. Why am i so easily beaten? Like a new born baby's head.. Hairless and soft. Touch also like will have blue black like that..
Recently i start questioning myself of why i do things.. And studying sejarah is like so stupid and pointless, super frustrating. And its even more frustrating when i never seem to get the point of it. Why study tamadun and all those stuff?! We dont even use any of those tamadun stuff in life, right? Urgh. And i just realized its just the first 2 babs of form 4. And i cant do anything about it, even if i think that studying it is pointless. BANG! And reality punched me right at the face. Sometimes feel like not studying for once.. fail then fail loh.. But i know i dont have enough courage. Haha. I wonder how people get 1A for sejarah. How does she get 98 for sejarah?! Memorize the book?! I seem to have a forever battle with sejarah.. Ish.
Face reality, face reality.
Tommorow ujian serentak. Ahhh!!!!!!! Everyone like so prepared. Only me there, drowning. Its the concequences of my actions anyway. Cant blame anybody.. Everytime also like that. Hmm.. I need more discipline. Ish.
Discipline!! Discipline!!
Ya i know. Tommorow exam, and i'm now here. My blog has been dead for so long and of all days i choose to blog now? Haha. Ya. I dont know why. Suddenly all these thoughts wanna come out of me..
*btw, why is there a single hand, third apart scale in the piano exam? What's the point of it when there's a separate hand one? Tangle up our fingers? This is one thing i find pointless too.
Ya, i know i'm starting to sound irritating.
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