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Well, it has been an eventful 3days for me. =) =)

Monday
Went for driving in the morning, got JPA results at noon, went to teach at shelter in the evening, and went jogging with my ever-faithful-jogging-partner Wei Wey in the later part of evening =)

Tuesday
Last driving lesson in the morning. And waited for time to pass so that it will reach 2pm, cause Singapore Poly results will be out!! Actually wanted to do something else, but couldn't.. My stomach was just twisted into so many knots, and was very nervous and couldn't wait for 2pm.

Well, 2pm finally arrived and... All I saw was 'UNSUCCESSFUL'. My heart sank.. SANK. I signed out of my account and signed in again to check, about 3times. Just to make sure, just to make sure it wasn't a mistake. Well.. I didn't get it =| Was actually quite confident that I would get it, but well, God has other plans I guess.

Disheartened, I went for badminton. Thanks for the badminton time guys, felt better after that =)

Couldn't sleep that night, all the steps, all the this-and-thats I needed to do during the driving exam kept playing and repeating in my mind. The uphill, the turning into junctions, the changing of gears... Well, finally fell asleep close to 1am, but got up at about 5am and couldn't sleep since then.. Tossing and turning, talking to God (pleading God, haha.), thinking about dear Ru, Andrinna, SzeWei and Aiting in NS (miss them so much!), and again repeating all the steps of the exam in my head. And of course, trying hard to control all the butterflies in me, banging against my stomach walls, driving me crazy, haha.

Wednesday
TODAY. Today finally came.. Driving exam! Waited at the driving centre with Yin Ying from 8.40am to 11+am, then only reached our turn. Thank God for Yin Ying =) Thanks ying, for all the chatting and talking and encouraging and comforting and going through the whole driving routine again with me, really appreciate it =) Well, we passed! Praise God!! :D Seriously didn't expect it.. Thanks to all who sms-ed and facebook-ed to encourage us, thanks!! =)

And the thing that made my day was... The phone call. From Ru and Andrinna!! :D So touched and happy when they called. =) =) They said they're coming back tomorrow (Thursday), can't wait to see them! =)


So yeah, that was the past three days. Really thank God for everything, seriously. =)

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yet knowing how way leads on to way

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;

Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim
Because it was grassy and wanted wear,
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same,

And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I marked the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way
I doubted if I should ever come back.

I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I,
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.



And yes, once again, this poem appears. =|
And yes, I'm at life's crossroads. =|

Lord, grant me wisdom

*Btw, To AhRU, Andrinna, Aiting and Sze-wei:
I'm really really really gonna miss you!! Take care =) *

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my past week =|

The past week was LOOOOOOOONNG, tiring, packed and kinda tough.
With all sorts of ups and downs, it didn't even feel like one week at all.

In one week, I went for my first driving lesson, went to Singapore with some wonderful people, spent 5 hours in the zoo, took my SPM results, did ALOT of research and readings about veterinary courses, colleges, unis, spent alot of time (and energy) thinking of my future and God's will for my life, went for my second driving lesson, and usual stuffs during the weekends.

Driving. Not as easy as I thought. Lessons are really tiring and draining (also because of the SUPER HOT weather), and most of the time in a blur. I find it hard to concentrate while driving, not in the sense that I can't co-ordinate my hand and leg movements. My mind just haven't got used to the idea that I'm actually already starting to drive. Well, honestly I find driving tough. But I guess cause I just started lessons, hopefully I will master driving one day, WAHAHAHA. God, I pray that you'll help me drive better each time =)

Singapore. It's fun to travel without parents! =P Hehe, not that I don't enjoy their company, I do! It's just that, without parents, travelling is totally different. No more car to sit in, no more instructions or guidance on how to get your way along. I went with Wei Wey, Pek Ying and Yin Ying. Purpose of trip: the ZOO! :) We were a little lost at the beginning, but thank God for Wei Wey (and Wei Ling who joined us in Spore), we managed to go here and there safe and sound! Hehe. One thing I like about Spore is their MRTs and buses! Haha, this sounds stupid, but I only took them for 2 days, so it feels kinda nice (except for those super long rides). I like it because there is something called the EZ-Link card! :P Hahha, so nice :P Well, it was a great experience, a very joyful one too, with everyone always laughing about don't-know-what. Thanks to all the YOUs, it was fun! =)

Results. Well, I've already dreamt of my results in total about 5times before results day, ever since January. (Not in the way that I get my dream results, but in the way that I screw up really badly in my results) Yeah, I was really worried and scared =X I really was hoping my dreams were just dreams, that I wouldn't screw up in my actual results, cause I really worked super hard for SPM. Well, for the first time in my life, I cried (only very little) on results day. No, not tears of joy. First time, it was tears of fear, I knew I didn't perform as I hoped to. Second time, tears of disappointment. I expected more, just a little bit more. That day, the biggest lesson I learnt was this: We don't need to have perfect scores to give praise to God. We don't always need wonderful stuffs, or only good things to praise God. All we need, is just a heart of thanksgiving, no matter how you feel, no matter in what circumstance. That day, I was tested. To give thanks, or to sulk in a corner? It's our choice.

Beyond results. Have been thinking and praying alot, where to go, Lord, where to? Choices like these, it's really stressful and draining, especially when everyone around you has something to say. It has been tough. But I'm still seeking. Be Thou my Vision, O Lord of my life.

To all school-leavers, who are also struggling and seeking:
Trust in the Lord with all your heart
And lean not on your own understanding;
In all your ways acknowledge Him,
and He will make Your paths straight
Proverbs 3:5-6

These two verses have never meant and spoke so much to me till the past week, I hope it encourages and assures you just as it did to me. I pray that God will speak to us so clearly as we seek Him that we will not even have any doubt for His plan for us. Jiayou =)

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