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i a m b a c k . . .
Hello everyone... wah.. i cant believe i didnt update my blog for a week... so long... yet it feels like i just updated my blog yesterday... anyway... this week has been quite ok for me... having great times in school.... sometimes i wished i were in the second class rather then the class i am in now... other times.. i just love my class so much..!! Kekeke....
Well... ok.. today was a holiday.. yet i feel so exhausted right now... donno why... i didnt go to school... why am i so tired..?? Hmm.... today we had piano class *bluek*.... hehe...
The past few days.... thoughts were just like all over in my mind... thoughts of what was said to me... thoughts of what i read.... thoughts of 'what if'.... random thoughts... thoughts of thinking... thinking of thoughts... haha...
Thoughts of 'what if' scared me.... i realized i was scared of death.... not the death of me... but the death of my loved ones.... scared to lose them... terribly scared... i know i should rejoice... coz they will be in paradise... in Heaven.... but that also means i wont be able to spend time with them for the time being... on Earth... it really really scared me...
What scared me most was the thought of losing this somebody-who-i-treasure-so-much... when i thought of it.... it made me cry... but i know.... one day xx will have to leave... it still scares me... *gasp*....
I also realized that i am geting FAT... ahahahahha..!!! Yucks... i dont wanna be a fat girl... haha...
Tomorrow got pengawas meetin AGAIN.... eee.... sometimes i enjoy it... yet sometimes i am so sick of it...
Saturday going for the pertandingan eureka.... at THO.... some kinda science contest... looking forward to it... haha... yet scared... and seem not interested... haha... so 矛盾... XD
Oklah... bye bye.. =)
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